This job is tougher than I ever imagined. Not just motherhood, but adult life.
Why didn’t anyone tell me it was like this?
Supposedly there are 24 hours in a day. But I work for eight hours, and sleep for about six. That’s 14. Someone please tell me what I’m doing for those other 10! It seems like I’m not in control of my days and time and I’m dying to. (Tell me I’m not the only one who feels like this!)
I go to bed every day completely exhausted and I wake up feeling only slightly rested. It takes every ounce of energy I have to heave myself out of bed and down the stairs to begin my day.
Where does the energy come from?
- From knowing that every day that I’m alive is a blessing
- That my kids are healthy, happy and bright
- That my hubby is there for me through thick and thin
- That my job is both personally and professionally satisfying (I seriously have the best boss in the whole wide world)
- That we do not have to worry about money (since we have our spending under control) and I always seem to have enough money in the bank to cover the necessities. (I don’t always have much left over, but it’s soon to change, I hope.)
- That we live in a great area with lots of green space and friendly neighbors who still don’t lock their doors at night.
I get up and keep going because life, while short, while frustrating at times, can be highly satisfying when you stop to think about all the things that keep you going. I read a quote somewhere that said:
“If everyone threw their troubles and problems in a pile and you got to compare, you would snatch yours back in an instant.”
We may think we have it rough (and perhaps we do) but we also need the strength to keep going, to get out of whatever issue we’re tangled in and come out stronger. Not just for our own sake, but for our kids’ as well.
Man I so feel where ur coming from. I’ve been thinking lately like…”where does the day go? How don’t I have enough time to do x, y & z? Is my time management off?” I’ve been thinking of keeping a daily log to see where my time goes but ha, I don’t even have time for that. Not with an infant getting into everything these days.
Those were positive thoughts though. You always make me look back and think of the other side of things. Although I’m depressed about a lot of things, mainly not being happy about where I am in life, I still have a lot to be thankful for. Besides being diabetic, other than that, I’m healthy & finally losing weight. Yeah I’m still living at home & hate it, but at least we have a roof over our head. Yeah all my refund money went for my car note but without it, it’d be getting repossessed right now. Yeah being a single mother is HARD, waaaaay harder than I thought, but I have the most handsome, silly & amazing baby that I can’t wait to watch grow up into something phenomonial, etc.! He gives me strength to keep pushing on…even though he’s the main one who takes it all away by the end of the day, lol
@Courtney – Yes, it’s a struggle just to do ordinary things. TJ and I sit back sometimes and just think about how life will be once the kids are both potty-trained and basically self-sufficient. When they can bathe themselves and feed themselves and go entertain themselves. Seriously – what will we do with all that free time?!?!?!